musical life

The dissonance of our lives play through our own melodies, striking the wrong chords with the wrong choices. My dominant i chord is a seventh, breaking the laws of life and music. It sounds so horribly wrong, like everything else I do. My cadences are made with inversions, stressing the decisions I've made, that have become so weak. My only strong cadential point is that at the end of the piece, flowing, static, and erratically into my whole note that sustains and cuts off. My authentic cadence, so strong and final. The only right thing I've done in this piece, life. I title it "life". The melodic line gets lost in its own solo, behind all the movement of the other voices and instruments.

It's all retrogression, moving backwards, not forward.. My grading is horrible, with the red marks leaking from the page onto my wrists. More mistakes, with my weak chords and never returning to my tonic. What is my tonic, my tonal center has gone off. My key signature always lied. It was never in Major, for every sound I make is minor. Striking the sadness within, as usual. My harmonic analysis is so off. My rhythm doesn't fit, always too fast, always too slow.

I'm at the standstill, where my suspension doesn't stop, and my dissonance rings out in the night. It's the same as always. Every wrong tone, with my leaps and jumps, that sound so off. And yet in the end, the melody is sad and mournful, reflecting everything I was. A melody belongs to everyone, and I hope mine is happy, with a keynote that does not lie..!