When u turn 21, you can look back at your life and take a bag full of learnings and lessons. Now that its my turn to look back, I see people who are just like me. They have a good college life, good friends enjoying each moment as a bliss!
But I am not a part of such world anymore. I lost everything, be it coz of my own deeds or whatever, but now in the end I am standing alone with a yawp at those people whom I thought would stay beside me, come may what, turning my life into a living paradise.
Whose fault is it anyway if the world never fuses with my thoughts..?
I would say no one’s mistake.
And this is how this nasty, mean world moves. It will always strike you in your ass the moment you rise.
But I have had enough of this ass whipping! I have had my share of depression killing me each moment inside, turning me into someone who I never was(or could imagine to be!).
This is no sudden change that I am mentioning here, it has come with time, but now its here, its here to stay!
There are people standing(whom I thought are my own) to screw me, to drill my ass down, but I am not submitting myself to them this time so easily!
A Common Thought!
What do you need from this life..? love, friendships, etc; or rather I should say..dil, dosti etc(sound better!), so if the bad time comes, you have people to listen to you, and your lover’s shoulder to cry upon.
But now I am fucking alone. When I am in problem, I am the one at my own rescue!
Sounds ugly, but that’s true! In dil dosti and etc, I am the etc!
I just need some love, some good friends..that is all I long for.
But wait my dear, the lines above show the soft part of me..the usual Jatin. The only problem is that I fucking hate him now. I will pull him out and fucking slaughter him.
I want to kill the weak in me, I don’t need a fucking soul to please me!
Every now and then,, there are people who come up to me and ask me if I am doing good, and what all is going in my mind, and want me to share it with them. I say FUCK YOU!
I had spend my entire life till date making people weld with me, but the outcome..? (better not to be even mentioned!)
I no more run for happiness, neither will I wait for it.
Its time, that I want my time….alone!
People say—“ Jatin, why do you think negative..?”
I say—“ it’s official now”
People say—“why don’t you talk..?”
I say—“even if I talk, you will never understand me”
People say—“ Man, you think too much!”
I say—“you fucking moron, you breathe too much!”
People say—“ Stop dreaming”
I say—“ you FUCK OFF!”
Choose your love, choose your enemy, choose a career for urself, choose your own bed of roses, choose to love or lust, choose a Mc aloo tikki, or a chicken Mcgrill,
Choose your own world, and go choose your life!
That’s what everyone does.
You go choose a life, but today, I Choose Myself!
Peace out!
15 comments:
Yeah I Wish Every One Would Learn To Mind There Own Business..
exactly! but hey ultimate(anonymous), let me know your name.
this can surely fry up a hot chick
even without lighing a fire !
I hope it didn't fried up ur chick !
this did fry up some people!
i'll let you know the story when we meet! :P
Seems like enlightenment dawning on you :)
The last paragraph about "Choosing Myself" was thought provoking.
nice n smooth..havin a tough time i guess..jus dnt gv a damn abt ny1..be urself n den u gonna njoy..
just one word
APPLAUD
:D
You go choose a life, but today, I Choose Myself!"
Love this line.
no words to explain
:))
naive....that's wht u are...NAIVE!!!...darling ...lol..u sound so like a hurt chicken...
ont worry i aint acting like an oversmart bitch...been there, done all that boy... (just a guess, u a slitter too?) ... but you know what...what u realizing now is just a phase...things like these...you learn only after a fall...unless u make mistakes..u aint gonna learn..trust me on that..
and considering the part whr u say u dn need anyone anymore..ill give u an advice...remember one thing..always..
" the world dsnt need u...it's YOU who needs the world"
there's another option for you... "emotionless"..
it's a state i enjoy quite a lot.. :)
it ain't that bad...although my psychiatrists find that a very dangerous trait...trust me it makes life easier..a lot!
come on..stand up n get a hold of urself now..
:)
i have a small small world. i call it my friends.
It has remained rock solid, and now when i mention it there in the post that i don't need anyone, its only the opposite sex i talk about.
No offence, but love for me is on a hold, a vacation..which seems endless!
Thought provoking when you say 'emotionless', but that what i was, until i fell in love, and opened up.
Just that now i need to find that shell back, to go sleep there for ever! :)
"I no more run for happiness, neither will I wait for it.
Its time, that I want my time….alone!"
I could buy that you don't WAIT for Happiness anymore, but not running is such passive aggression.
Passivity, in turn, such a cyanide.
Anyway, wipe aside my preaching. How d'you define Happiness?
Passive Aggression - Yes!
I have doused the fire in me, as i am not trying to prove a point to anyone now.
Preaching, we all need!
and defining happiness, i Fail!
I see it in moments, be it in fighting someone, or in my plead.
Its what i want to do then, and if i accomplish it, Bang!
...and all the while you had it(fire), 'twas to prove (any/some)one?
fighting people doesn't fetch results. It is the idea when fought, raises the value of delta.
"Its what i want to do then"
'then' when? < this one could turn into a rather penetrative question, which you may obviously choose to skip.
The question about the fire ad proving it to someone, holds no importance to me now.
You see, delta already has a raised value!
and..
'Then'..? When..?! = In the moment!
:)
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