When u turn 21, you can look back at your life and take a bag full of learnings and lessons. Now that its my turn to look back, I see people who are just like me. They have a good college life, good friends enjoying each moment as a bliss!
But I am not a part of such world anymore. I lost everything, be it coz of my own deeds or whatever, but now in the end I am standing alone with a yawp at those people whom I thought would stay beside me, come may what, turning my life into a living paradise.
Whose fault is it anyway if the world never fuses with my thoughts..?
I would say no one’s mistake.
And this is how this nasty, mean world moves. It will always strike you in your ass the moment you rise.
But I have had enough of this ass whipping! I have had my share of depression killing me each moment inside, turning me into someone who I never was(or could imagine to be!).
This is no sudden change that I am mentioning here, it has come with time, but now its here, its here to stay!
There are people standing(whom I thought are my own) to screw me, to drill my ass down, but I am not submitting myself to them this time so easily!
A Common Thought!
What do you need from this life..? love, friendships, etc; or rather I should say..dil, dosti etc(sound better!), so if the bad time comes, you have people to listen to you, and your lover’s shoulder to cry upon.
But now I am fucking alone. When I am in problem, I am the one at my own rescue!
Sounds ugly, but that’s true! In dil dosti and etc, I am the etc!
I just need some love, some good friends..that is all I long for.
But wait my dear, the lines above show the soft part of me..the usual Jatin. The only problem is that I fucking hate him now. I will pull him out and fucking slaughter him.
I want to kill the weak in me, I don’t need a fucking soul to please me!
Every now and then,, there are people who come up to me and ask me if I am doing good, and what all is going in my mind, and want me to share it with them. I say FUCK YOU!
I had spend my entire life till date making people weld with me, but the outcome..? (better not to be even mentioned!)
I no more run for happiness, neither will I wait for it.
Its time, that I want my time….alone!
People say—“ Jatin, why do you think negative..?”
I say—“ it’s official now”
People say—“why don’t you talk..?”
I say—“even if I talk, you will never understand me”
People say—“ Man, you think too much!”
I say—“you fucking moron, you breathe too much!”
People say—“ Stop dreaming”
I say—“ you FUCK OFF!”
Choose your love, choose your enemy, choose a career for urself, choose your own bed of roses, choose to love or lust, choose a Mc aloo tikki, or a chicken Mcgrill,
Choose your own world, and go choose your life!
That’s what everyone does.
You go choose a life, but today, I Choose Myself!
Peace out!
